In the “Wait…what are you?” series (a question all too familiar to mixed race people), I am making sense of why I hate the word ‘exotic’ and resented the experience of being a woman for a good portion of my life. I re-examine female characters from stories I passively internalized in childhood through my gay, mixed race lens. These womens’ individual voices and feelings were not included in the stories I heard growing up –only the actions of others in positions of power over them. In this series, I undertake giving their perspectives (and my own) authority.
Printed on fabric like tattoos on skin, symbols that represent my heritage, alongside Greek mythology, queer culture, and pop culture cover my woodblock self-portraits. With this storytelling, I seek to remove the passive acceptance of accessible exoticism and redefine being a mixed race woman who is white-adjacent. I uplift and add to the collective story of thousands of women’s voices that came before mine - many that were silent or silenced throughout history and today. I seek to shift the implied heteronormative male gaze out of my work and widen the viewfinder to include my life’s intersections of gender, race, and sexuality.
I began my series with Shahrazad, who is looking directly at the ‘male gaze’ and using the tools she has to stay alive. Her cleverness in storytelling is often exalted, but I wanted to draw attention to what she didn’t get to say living in fear of death every night. Next, I worked with Medusa. She could not overcome the violence of men and bears the burden of its consequences forever in her body. Third, is Persephone who suffered death, but also used it by accepting it into her seasonal shifts through life, becoming Queen of the Underworld. Finally, I reimagined Barbie. My gay femme icon who helped me understand my true self as a gay woman in my childhood. She is choice and celebration of being in her own power and community.
Das Schaufenster Gallery Artist Talk
Shahrazad, 2021, woodcut on fabric 6 x 4 ft